So far, the marriage is not ruined. Not technically, not if they stop now. If all they've done is touch and put mouths where mouths aren't supposed to go, then she can go into her marriage slightly tainted but unused.

She doesn't voice it, doesn't even think it fully, but it's there in the back of her mind.

"I still don't know the meaning of dyad, but I know that this," even as she catches her breath and attempts to ease her legs closed, she wants more. All of it. All of him. "I can't imagine being without you and it's been hours."